so I've decided to do my fall lookbook in a three part series type of thing! this is the first so keep an eye out for the rest! the next paragraph is going to be a little deep so skip ahead to the outfit deets if you'd like.
as most of you may already know, this week hasn't exactly been the best. I guess that's what's weird about this generation, we feel the need to share everything with everyone, even things meant to be kept personal. my Instagram is a way of doing that and so is this blog. I'm so thankful I have this blog to be able to communicate my feelings & emotional standpoints as well as my creativity. I am so incredibly overwhelmed by all the love and support I've received the past few days, every single one of you mean so much to me and I can't begin to thank you enough. I learned a lot of things from this whole ordeal but the main one is that you are the only one that knows what's best for you. I can't sit here and say that I've learned to forgive & forget, because I obviously haven't been able to do either just yet. but I have learned to accept things and I'm choosing to work on rebuilding a trust level with the one that broke it all. I know that it's going to be hard but when is it ever going to be easy? when you invest not only your money, but your time, your energy, your entire being into someone... just to have them throw it away with some hussy.. it hurts. but nothing is ever broken forever and if there's a will? there's a way. one day it'll stop hurting and you'll be healed and I'm hoping that he's going to be one that fixes what he's broken. don't get me wrong, I may be letting him mend things, but I still think he's a jerk who's done the lowest of the low. I guess it's a risk and a journey that I'll have to meet head on. tbh I never thought I'd be the one to get cheated on, let alone by him, and take him back.. at the end of the day though, fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me. that girl was someone that I went and comforted when she was crying & someone that I befriended. what a fucking waste of a human being lol.
this whole series is shot at the petaluma pumpkin patch! they have a seriously freaky corn maze and a cute little corn box! definitely a must for fall festivities! I'm honestly so excited for the leaves to start changing and the for it to actually be cold enough to sleep in blankets!
this look features the:
booties by qupid via thrift (linked qupid for y'all anyways)
vintage lv crossbody via grandma
bamboo gold tone hoops via ebay (my lobes can't handle heavy earrings so I got the cheap ones from ebay! they're light and made of plastic so my ears are happy & so is my wallet!)